Change.
And I'm not talking about that stuff that no body wants but they give you anyways every time you buy something.
I'm talking about change, creating different circumstances in your life.
Yeah that thing. I want some.
Some people are afraid of change, in fact most people have a complete and utter hatred of any and all types of change. Not me.
I crave it. I love change. I am, in fact, an agent of change. I need a change, often, in everything. Monotony is my worst enemy. I actually enjoy change so much that I have three beds in my bedroom and every couple of weeks I change the bed I sleep in just because I enjoy switching it up a little. And that, my friends, is a true story. No lie.
I guess you could say I am addicted to change...
But recently, I have been stuck in a rut of boring, monotonous, for lack of a better (read: real) word, sameness.
For the last couple months I've had the same everything. Same schedule, same mood, same friends. I've listened to the same music, eaten the same foods, broken the same string on my guitar. (Which drives me crazy!) I've used the same toothpaste, even worn the same socks. Well, okay, I haven't worn the same socks, but you get the picture.
I'm just bored with life.
I want something to happen... right now.
I want someone to surprise me with something life-altering.
I want to meet new people.
I'm even willing to break a bone if it will make things more interesting for a little while.
Everything is just so predictable. Something needs to change.
I know that people are going to say to change something on my own, but that means your totally missing what I'm trying to say. I understand, sure I could change something. I could change my schedule around a little bit, I could change the kind of toothpaste I use, I could change my socks. Sure, but those are just minor changes. I use them as an example, but that's not really what I'm talking about. I need a change that really and truly alters the way my life works. I want destiny to throw me a curve ball and I want to hit it out of the park.
I don't really see anyway for me to create this type of change on my own, so for now, I'll be waiting for destiny to go to a party, maybe do some LSD, and say, "Hey! Let's screw things around a little bit!"
Until that happens, I'll be living moment to moment, always looking for my moment to grab hold of something new.
My song of the moment:
Anything But Ordinary by Avril Lavigne
Dazed and Confused,
Oxy
Thursday, May 21, 2009
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3 comments:
Hmm...
Definitely see where you're going with this.
Beyond suggesting cutting all your hair off (little joke) I have a big one to offer you.
You should...take another look at religion.
I'll be honest, being atheist is very depressing and you often feel alone, but it's also verrrry enlightening.
I, too, was Christian once.
There was a point of time when I didn't go to church, and it was during that time that I questioned if I was even a believer in the first place or was just told I was.
If you want to flip things up, that's the way to go.
I'll admit, I am aggravated by people who blindly accept God (not insinuating).
You have the power to make your life change.
Next time you're pondering or twidling your thumbs, and I'm sure you have, really honestly think about it.
Or for the easy way out, shave your head.
Ahha. Beau. That post utterly and completely convinced me you should start a blog of your own. You have some good stuff to say. I HAVE many times truly thought about my religion and faith. I have no doubt in my god and it's very hard to doubt your faith when you have witnessed miracles like the ones I have. Thank you for your suggestion, maybe I WILL shave my head.
Be careful what you wish for. When you have a good life, change may not be really what you want. Change isn't always good. Be grateful for the happy, peaceful life that you have.
As for your blogger who suggests to change your life by becoming an atheist....I would definitely stay away from his advice.
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